Lyrics
I tried to be something pureBut I was never the cureEvery step I took in lightOnly led me back to night
I built my hope on fragile liesThat slowly learned to despiseThe person I was beforeDoesn’t live here anymore
Tell me who I should have beenWhen everything is wearing thinI reached for meaning in the airBut nothing was ever there
I was never the light they prayed for me to beI was the shadow underneath what they believeEvery hope they put in meTurned into anatomyOf something they won’t understandI never was the light
No salvation in my nameOnly echoes of the flameI was never the light — I remain the night
I stopped pretending I could changeThe shape of something so derangedEvery version I outgrewWas just a death I walked into
They wanted heaven in my skinBut I was built from what’s withinAnd everything they called “wrong”Was where I’ve belonged all along
If I was meant to be repairedWhy does breaking feel like airI stopped resisting what I amAnd finally understand
I was never the light they prayed for me to beI was the shadow underneath what they believeEvery hope they put in meTurned into anatomyOf something they won’t understandI never was the light
No salvation in my nameOnly echoes of the flameI was never the light — I remain the night
No more reachingNo more shameI don’t answerTo that name
Let it endLet it burnThis is everything I’ve learned
I was never…I was never…I was never the light…
I was never the light they prayed for me to beI was the shadow underneath what they believeEvery hope they put in meTurned into anatomyOf something they won’t understandI never was the light
No salvation in my nameOnly echoes of the flameI was never the light — I remain the night
No beginning…no redemption…only what I was…