Lyrics
The thunder started somewhere under my skinA quiet little warning from the war withinI tried to hold the lightning behind my teethBut it burned through the words I was taught to keep
There’s a girl in the rain with my hands and my scarsThere’s a beast at her side counting all my false startsOne wants shelter, one wants blood on the floorAnd I’m standing in the middle asking, “Who am I for?”
My heart is splitting openMy pulse becomes a drumIf I become the weatherCan I survive what I become?
Storm within, tearing through my bonesI am not the cage, I am not the ghostEvery scream I swallowed turns into the windStorm within —Don’t let me drown again
I am the eyeI am the violenceI am the skyBreaking the silence
I hear my old self begging me to stay cleanLike survival never had to be meanBut the world had teeth, and I learned mine tooNow I don’t know what mercy is supposed to do
The mirror shakes when I breathe too deepThe walls know secrets that I couldn’t keepIf I calm the storm, will I lose my flame?If I let it loose, will I lose my name?
Hold the line!Hold the line!There’s a hurricane wearing my face
Breathe it in!Burn it out!Turn the panic into grace
I won’t kill the beastI won’t crown the painI will teach this thunderHow to say my name
I won’t be the ruinI won’t be the preyI will walk through the lightningAnd make it obey
I am the eyeI am the violenceI am the skyBreaking the silence
Storm within, tearing through my bonesI am not the cage, I am not the ghostEvery scream I swallowed turns into the windStorm within —Don’t let me drown again
Storm within, but I’m learning how to standWith the beast in my chest and the rain in my handsIf the sky must break, let it break where I beginStorm within —I will not drown again
The thunder does not leave
It kneels beneath my breathing
For the first time
The storm waits for me
